I struggle to heal
My marriage ended in 2012, though my ex came back—god knows why and she has a strange communication disability. She then dumped me again in 2021, returned, and then went for the final coup de grace in 2023.
It's 2024 and I'm still struggling to grieve for the events in my life in 2012. I doubt I'll get to 2021 or 2023 for another decade at the rate I'm going.
It's such a waste to even think about her, but that behavior is the most common symptom of PTSD. When there's a vacuum of the type my ex created dozens of times besides the three major debacles with her"partner" (Mina— you have no idea what partnership means. I have John, Lucretia, my parents, and so many other people you knew and resented), most people do some degree of filling in the blanks with the worst.
This is the definition of manic behavior.
My ex is the definition of blank, and vacuum. But I read she's learned some stuff about gear ratios on bikes!🚴. She does the same destructive behavior to others and then loses her shit when she gets the same angry reaction. Slow learner, that one.
It's 2024 and I'm still struggling to grieve for the events in my life in 2012. I doubt I'll get to 2021 or 2023 for another decade at the rate I'm going.
It's such a waste to even think about her, but that behavior is the most common symptom of PTSD. When there's a vacuum of the type my ex created dozens of times besides the three major debacles with her"partner" (Mina— you have no idea what partnership means. I have John, Lucretia, my parents, and so many other people you knew and resented), most people do some degree of filling in the blanks with the worst.
This is the definition of manic behavior.
My ex is the definition of blank, and vacuum. But I read she's learned some stuff about gear ratios on bikes!🚴. She does the same destructive behavior to others and then loses her shit when she gets the same angry reaction. Slow learner, that one.
I am so ashamed that I enabled this harmful person. And then, paradoxically, that our marriage was so pathetic.
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