You’re older now
You're older now than I was when you dumped me the first time in 2012!
How does that feel?
You're old! I slept with a bunch of people I wasn't attracted to in 2012. I was that far into PTSD. I was always attracted to you even though I knew you were small and not capable of grandness or success.
But we felt like a team. To me. I believe I know that you never felt that way, and would never admit it if you did. That you cared for someone.
I am too old and too depressed to be on a team now. And you're now in the years where all the wheels fall off, as I was after 2012.
It's gonna get worse. I can tell you that from your future. We will be partners again in pain, after the party ends for you too. I'll be 82 when you're my current age!
You will get schooled by life. You soon will not be able to get off some couch somewhere. So pick a couch you really like. Call it David. Think of me when you absolutely cannot get up. I will be loving you from somewhere. You won't want to reach out for my hand, even then. Be assured I'd be there in a minute, without judgement or anger.
How does that feel?
You're old! I slept with a bunch of people I wasn't attracted to in 2012. I was that far into PTSD. I was always attracted to you even though I knew you were small and not capable of grandness or success.
But we felt like a team. To me. I believe I know that you never felt that way, and would never admit it if you did. That you cared for someone.
I am too old and too depressed to be on a team now. And you're now in the years where all the wheels fall off, as I was after 2012.
It's gonna get worse. I can tell you that from your future. We will be partners again in pain, after the party ends for you too. I'll be 82 when you're my current age!
You will get schooled by life. You soon will not be able to get off some couch somewhere. So pick a couch you really like. Call it David. Think of me when you absolutely cannot get up. I will be loving you from somewhere. You won't want to reach out for my hand, even then. Be assured I'd be there in a minute, without judgement or anger.
A ghost on a couch. I see you and love you.
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