My marriage isn’t working for me
Actually it's my divorce, but measured by the amount of approval, love, and thanks I receive, there's no difference.
True, I get no attention now from my ex. I literally don't recall if that's better or worse than when we slept in the same bed for 28 years. The attention I got always felt like criticism, and the backstabbing chatter felt like childish rudeness. Neither my marriage nor my divorce generated affection at the level I wanted.
They never worked for me. My ex never showed up for me then, and so her total absence now feels similarly unsatisfactory. I'd be so much clearer about my needs and boundaries now, and so little of her behavior would be acceptable to me. Too bad. I liked her, but what a selfish asshole!
I breath in receiving now. I never received a thing in the past. I gave and gave and gave and got insulted every day. My little non-violent parasite. She is a well that never offers water.
True, I get no attention now from my ex. I literally don't recall if that's better or worse than when we slept in the same bed for 28 years. The attention I got always felt like criticism, and the backstabbing chatter felt like childish rudeness. Neither my marriage nor my divorce generated affection at the level I wanted.
They never worked for me. My ex never showed up for me then, and so her total absence now feels similarly unsatisfactory. I'd be so much clearer about my needs and boundaries now, and so little of her behavior would be acceptable to me. Too bad. I liked her, but what a selfish asshole!
I breath in receiving now. I never received a thing in the past. I gave and gave and gave and got insulted every day. My little non-violent parasite. She is a well that never offers water.
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