I think of you daily, and imagine a perfect partnership
I recall how much I enjoyed your companionship and loved you. I accept the parts of you I found to be unkind.
I'm sure you're aging gracefully, unlike the other passengers in your car who died screaming their heads off. (Remember how much we laughed at that joke?)
Someone we knew described you as a person without a moral compass. I'd agree with that. You wanted to be the pivot in the center of the needle, so that we’d all align with your magnetic fields.
I could adjust to that. You didn't waste time assessing the needs or desires of others, and you often behaved with breathtaking rudeness and selfishness. I took the brunt, but I was never the sole receiver.
I could not adjust to your schoolyard behavior of blaming those closest to you for your own flaws. In a perfect world I wish I had helped you end that behavior, and that you appreciated me for the investment I made in you.
I'm understand that I don’t know you well so I’m guessing when I express my assumption that, whenever you are now, you are hurting some of those around you. My guess is they don't see the "graceful" part even if they also enjoy you, as I did. They’ll never enjoy you as much as I did. And I did understand that you, like me, had trauma to deal with. The young David and the young Mina. Trying to navigate a world with parents who weren’t available. Imagine if we’d been able to share that. We would have been perfect together.
I'm sure you're aging gracefully, unlike the other passengers in your car who died screaming their heads off. (Remember how much we laughed at that joke?)
Someone we knew described you as a person without a moral compass. I'd agree with that. You wanted to be the pivot in the center of the needle, so that we’d all align with your magnetic fields.
I could adjust to that. You didn't waste time assessing the needs or desires of others, and you often behaved with breathtaking rudeness and selfishness. I took the brunt, but I was never the sole receiver.
I could not adjust to your schoolyard behavior of blaming those closest to you for your own flaws. In a perfect world I wish I had helped you end that behavior, and that you appreciated me for the investment I made in you.
I'm understand that I don’t know you well so I’m guessing when I express my assumption that, whenever you are now, you are hurting some of those around you. My guess is they don't see the "graceful" part even if they also enjoy you, as I did. They’ll never enjoy you as much as I did. And I did understand that you, like me, had trauma to deal with. The young David and the young Mina. Trying to navigate a world with parents who weren’t available. Imagine if we’d been able to share that. We would have been perfect together.
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