Keep out of my dreams

 I usually manage to keep my ex out of my dreams.  She can't do anything but harm to my sleep, and she has no right to claim any further space than she stole already.  

Still she got in there tonight.  The Ring of Fire approach to keeping bad people away failed.

This was a new version...stupid, strict, pretty violent.

She spent a lot of time saying things like "you have thirty days to get your shit out of my house,"

Funny since she was always absent having affairs.  And she left all her shit at home while she was gone.

Thinking I'd take her back which I always did.  Every time.   Who's stupid now, dude?  True sociopathic trash, that one.  You enabled her illness, believing you were helping her. She was a predator, not a wounded fawn.  A coyote.  

She was certain I was an asshole, as always.  That was familiar.

And she was certain that it was because of her attractiveness that she was fucking someone else.  That's pretty familiar too.

And she was always walking away from me with her back turned, yelling without making eye contact.

Come to think of it, this dream being was a very clear representation of my memories of Mina.  Seeing a victim in any kind person.  Always walking away as I bled.  

Devoid of empathy or maternal and marital love.  Never disclosive.  Never inclusive.  Wary.  Looking for her spots to attack.

Dream Girl. I wish I could say "You have 30 days to get out." and know I could accomplish that.  I applaud my successes, but it's like saying "You have 30 days to repair my home and leave" after a US drone attack has flattened your block and killed all your relatives and friends.

Two things that would inhabit your dreams for a long time.  Mina and a 3 AM drone attack.  When I look at it that way, I'm sleeping incredibly well.  And living better than I ever have?