Back in focus
I'm getting good at noticing my emotions, health, needs, and more. Lot's of therapy and mental health investment.
That being said I can't say I have a clear picture of the vivid anger that's resurfaced the last four days directed yet again at my worthless mean ex wife. Her caustic and careless behavior deserves censure and punishment, though that won't happen. She'll just self edit herself into continued irrelevancy, unable to learn, change, or grow beyond her childhood contracts.
I send disdain and animosity toward this thing that was the most important relationship of my entire life. The Ill-wishes ascend. Like my fucked up country that overs little except war and pain, I resent any success my ex might have in her small life, wherever she crawled off to.
And I hope this spike in disgust and anger ends soon for me, so I can return to my new journey toward a rich, deep self-respect I've never experienced before. And experience I've seen in assisted ketamine treatment but mostly through talk therapy. And experience that Mina cannot share and can't have for herself, because she is not allowed anywhere near my good hopes and dreams for myself.
That being said I can't say I have a clear picture of the vivid anger that's resurfaced the last four days directed yet again at my worthless mean ex wife. Her caustic and careless behavior deserves censure and punishment, though that won't happen. She'll just self edit herself into continued irrelevancy, unable to learn, change, or grow beyond her childhood contracts.
I send disdain and animosity toward this thing that was the most important relationship of my entire life. The Ill-wishes ascend. Like my fucked up country that overs little except war and pain, I resent any success my ex might have in her small life, wherever she crawled off to.
And I hope this spike in disgust and anger ends soon for me, so I can return to my new journey toward a rich, deep self-respect I've never experienced before. And experience I've seen in assisted ketamine treatment but mostly through talk therapy. And experience that Mina cannot share and can't have for herself, because she is not allowed anywhere near my good hopes and dreams for myself.
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