The daily marriage quiz

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My long marriage was like a daily quiz show. Except for one thing: the question was the same every day:

How will you disappoint me today?

I did really well at this reality TV show. I didn't want to disappoint her, though I eventually began to stop battling to stay in the game. I stopped believing I could ever change the rules or the outcome.

In the end, I guess my ex could see I'd surrendered so it wasn't fun for her. So she just started making up answers about me that justified the nasty stuff she was doing to me and others. 

And herself disturbingly frequently.

In love as in cheap TV, it’s all about the ratings.  Love, from me alone at last sighting.

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