Down time

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I've stopped taking chemicals etc in order to get a clear line on treating my depression.

 

Yesterday I took about a quarter of a microdosing hit of LSD.   And I had a glass of rose with dinner.

 

Today I'm lower than a summertime dog. 

 

I've got to be careful if I'm going to get through this.  My goal is to stay clear of all the psychedelics I was doing as treatment, alcohol, and other mind-altering chemicals until early August.

 

Then go back on anti-depressants alone.  My MD thinks I've gone into serotonin crisis after MDMA experience and alcohol with a roommate.

 

I don't know.  I just know I'm close to "can't get off the couch" mode again. 

 

 

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