The irony of apologizing to a ghost

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I've sent dozens of loopy, angry, critical, depressed, insulting, mean, hopeless and self-destructive messages to my ex-wife over the last three years while I've been battling PTSD and depression.

They all share one thing, no matter their tone or degree of logic: she never replied.

I would have apologized for all my nastiness. In fact I often have.

The apologies all share one characteristic: my ex never replied.

Join the club. This is classic narcissistic gaslighting. I've watched her do this to dozens of others. Mostly her parents.

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