I am still in shock

All these years later I'm still in shock—both medical and emotional—that the woman I married and lived with for 30 years is such a sick fuck! She knows she's vaulting pain and anger and damaging lives—and worries about nothing other than her outfits. She fails at everything she does, without exception, and it is always someone else's fault.

I wish you deep suffering, since you've never had the experience. Then you'll understand who I am for the first time, and you too will be shocked to see yourself though my eyes. Please know pain.