I narcissist-proofed my life, but they keep trying to get back in.

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My ex for instance. Trump, who swims in the deepest putrid self-reflecting pools. A few others. People who just want the spotlight. Any spotlight. For those in similar situations—join with me in remembering: 1. Past memories are ruined. You can’t heal from them. 2. You can’t have your own present when a performer is manipulating you. There’s no happy compromise for now. 3. The future—you’re kidding, right? Why waste your future on a fraudulent and depreciating asset? Change the locks. Hit delete. Save your beautiful self. Share all that previously wasted love with someone who will be there when you’re in trouble again.

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